It is amazing to me how things can turn out. I am thankful I had that courage to wait for Mike. I am thankful God gave him to me when he did and I am thankful for the life we have together. While we have had some major ups and downs it seems that neither of us knows how to be without the other. We are deeply connected and seem to know how to crawl out of the bad times together.
I have debated sharing this but in the interest of being honest I am going to share with you all a bit of my story with Mike.
Mike and I met, married and got pregnant all before we had known each other a year. Just before our first anniversary we had our beautiful Evelyn. That first year of being a family of three was blissful. We had some hardships. We lost Mike's Dad suddenly to cancer and we had to navigate a life with baby while we were still in essence getting to know each other but we were happy and in love. Our second anniversary came with great celebration. We had a big year, it was worth celebrating. Our second year of marriage was a challenge. I was so deeply depressed and full of anxiety that I found myself losing all my bliss. Mike and I had horrible fights. The threat of divorce was openly made on more than one occassion. That time is still hard for me to think of. We went to Mexico last February and I actually considered suicide. Here we were on this amazing holiday and I was so lost that I didn't even want to live. Upon coming home Evelyn had her 18 month immunizations. The public health nurse was a close friend of ours. She asked me how I was doing and I broke down. I cried and cried in that little room. The nurse promptly sent me to the doctor where I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I am now on medication and learning how to take care of myself better so I don't get back to that dark place. All the while, Mike stood by me. Through all the fights, all the drama and all the tears he was perpetually there. Mike is calm and even. He has rarely lost his cool in the years we have been together and through all of the struggle and heartbreak I went through this last year he has been there. He has taken care of me. Mike and I have developed such a strong faith in each other and God that it seems at this point we can overcome all the challenges life gives us. In September we celebrated our third anniversary. Now that was an anniversary worth celebrating! We went away for a whole weekend together and had a wonderful time. It was so nice to just hangout in bed reading, eating leisurely meals together and walking around the mountains without any concern. That weekend was truly a joy and treat for us. It was the perfect way to celebrate all that we had overcome. On the drive home we both agreed that a few more days would be nice...but only if Evelyn would have been there for them :)
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